When I saw news on Twitter that Bekah was leaving After School.
First feelings were mixed, confused. I didnt know what was happening, there wasn't alot of explanations either.
Trawled through tweets, read misskahi.com. Asked around, especially on Twitter.
It's times like these when you realise the power of the internet. How fast news can spread.
I cried upon seeing all the encouragements, as well as sadness and emptiness felt by the fans.
Bekah's graduation is really sudden. Unexpected. Too soon.
Nobody saw it coming. We don't want it to happen. And why Bekah?
But then, it all made sense.
To be honest, Bekah sort of gave clues in her recent tweets. But no one noticed.
"우리 팬들... 감사합니다~ 진심으로... 사랑해요~ 힘이너무됏어요~ 막방을끝낫어요... 사랑해요.. 굿빠이:)" Saying "goodbye" in the tweet about their last stage for Shampoo...
"Thank you everybody....it was a GREAT last show... love u guys:) God bless u~ " Who knew her last show, really meant last show?
"Thanks everybody~ you guys are the best~ God Bless you guys for realzzzzzz~<3"
The other members' emo, sad, depressed, complicating tweets last week... They all made sense.
Who wouldn't be upset if one of their fellow members, an important one at that since she's the rapper alongside Kahi.
The only one who's fluent in English and is able to communicate with foreign fans well.
The one whose Korean isn't very good, but her mistakes provides laughter for the other girls and they help her to improve.
The Hawaiian girl whom we all love, who loves to draw, who likes to share bits and pieces of her life with us, who always replies to fans' tweets.
The American whose hard work and effort you can really see.
Our Bekah, who has transformed from the fierce rapper during debut, to the current lovely girl who even has singing lines.
I didnt know how to express my thoughts about Bekah's graduation. So I editted some song lyrics.
This is from After School's Diva rap part. Bekah's part.
"우리 사랑이 종요해 No matter what you are our Bek! <3"
And this, from The Script's Breakeven.
"What am I supposed to do when the best part of A.S. was always you? What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and so are you. Playgirlz are falling to pieces, yeah. Playgirlz are falling to pieces......"
I probably shouldnt feel this way, but suddenly there was a tiny sense of luckiness and I was glad.
At least I managed to see Bekah at the HTW concert.
The only overseas venue where After School performed Shampoo.
The only overseas venue with 9 members all in full attendance.
The last overseas venue where we see Bekah as an After School member.
Suddenly, this feels like the Sunmi-Wonder Girls situation all over again.
With how Avex is already recruiting a new Japanese member for After School's Japanese activities. Like how Lim had joined Wonder Girls immediately after Sunmi started her break to study.
So I'm telling myself:
Bekah isn't LEAVING After School. She's merely graduating.
Just like how Sunmi didnt leave Wonder Girls. She's merely taking a break to study.
The graduation of another 1st generation member. We only have Kahi, JungAh and Jooyeon left.
Although there's a saying that goes 旧的不去，新的不来;
But it is in times like these when I don't want to get rid of the old to welcome the new.
Suddenly, the first generation members feel so precious to me. Because they're the ones whom I have loved since Diva era. Yes, I got to know After School from the beginning of 2009.
Kahi, JungAh, Jooyeon. I can't bear to see any of them graduate from After School...
Watching After School grow from 5, to 6, to 7, to 8, to 9. And I think, we should just stick with these 9.
Park Kahi, Kim Jungah, Lee Jooyeon, Kim Uie, Rebekah, Raina, Im Nana, Park Lizzy, Noh E-young.
